Life is like a tall glass of iced pink lemonade right now...

I went kayaking yesterday with my title-undetermined boyfriend (?) near Cochiti. It was so nice being on the water again, I really miss it. I liked the autonomy of the kayak, you are going your own pace, you are responsible for how straight the boat goes, and best yet, a little bit of silence on a wake-free lake.

We went early morning until afternoon, then ate lunch and returned when the sun was going down. An absolutely breath-taking sunset. In my lifejacket, in the middle of the lake, I secured my oars and just stretched back as far as I could and watched the sky turn various shades of golds, pinks, and reds. With each deep breath, feelings of deep gratitude kept spreading all over me. It's been an amazing month. The tufts of white slowly changed into tufts of pink and orange. It was stunning. I hadn't felt that content in a long time.

I got a terrible sunburn on my knees, they are absolutely neon, it's disgusting!

Sometimes we make mistakes of character, and in some ways, I feel like I may have made one within the past week. Those sorts of things have been fewer and farther between, but afterwards, all I can think of is how very embarassing they are. I think I came off too strong to someone I hardly knew, but with each mistake, the more I know about myself and how to change that situation the next time it rolls around. So, for future reference to myself, don't get too excited about molehills, they aren't mountains. Fleeting attraction is just that...fleeting. I shouldn't have acted on it.

Kelly Clarkson's new CD is amazing and I love it so much. It keeps me so young. As does "The Time Traveler's Wife," check it out, I've given it as a gift to two people in the past week. Those two are like the fountain of youth. I have finally found the PERFECT grad program for myself...and it is in Michigan. After lengthy discussion with my professor guidance department, it seems feasible and exciting. And perfect. It's strange, my life makes more sense right now than it has in the past. I'm feeling very...complete.

Here's to summer and the invariable joys it can and will bring.